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By Scott
McLemme
PEOPLE WHO HAVE NEVER experienced depression, or witnessed its ravages
up close, tend to think of it as a mood-a particularly keen variety of
sadness, perhaps. This misunderstanding is forgivable. It is common to
speak of "feeling depressed," after all. But for anyone who suffers
from it, depression is not a feeling. It is a state of being.
Depression is a world unto itself, one that is dense, with a lot of
gravity, making it difficult to move, much less escape.
Or picture it this way. Imagine what goes on inside someone's mind just
after a guillotine blade has done its work: absolute desperation
combined with perfect helplessness, and the recognition that it's much
too late to do anything anyway. Now take that millisecond of awareness
and stretch it out-for a day, a week, a month. Longer. Depression means
seeing only the portion of existence remaining visible from the basket
that caught your head.
This is guesswork, of course, since I have never been beheaded; yet the
metaphor does seem to fit chronic low-grade depression, a field in
which my credentials are (alas) impeccable.
To convey the extremes of melancholia afflicting Andrew Solomon-which
he writes about in "The Noonday Demon"-might require imagining
something even more unnerving. Solomon describes periods when eating,
sleeping and taking a shower represented major challenges. There were
nearly insurmountable difficulties involved in moving from one side of
the room to the next, much less picking up a telephone. It sounds like
being at the very bottom of the basket, face down, with the weight of
other lifeless flesh pressing on all sides.
That Solomon recovered to write about the experience for The New Yorker
in 1998 was a tribute to antidepressants such as Prozac or Zoloft. And
to that degree, perhaps, Solomon's memoir was also an advertisement for
the psychopharmaceutical industry. These wonder drugs have become the
first line of treatment for the disorder; in the age of managed care,
they are often the last word as well, given their low cost compared to
psychotherapy.
So part of the interest of "The Noonday Demon" comes from its status as
evidence of medicine's continuing progress. Autobiographical passages
recount Solomon's problem with a really harrowing psychiatric
condition. Yet the book's sheer bulk (given its rambles through
biomedical research and cultural history, and its digressive narratives
based on interviews with other people suffering from depression)
renders it oddly reassuring. The author is able to work hard; the
problem hasn't clobbered him senseless.
Beyond this incidental encouragement, what Solomon provides, above all,
is information. For someone who doesn't know much about the topic-but
who wants (or needs) to learn a lot, as fast as possible-"Noonday
Demon" will probably serve as the standard reference. It is a handy
one-volume compendium of recent biomedical thinking about depression:
the array of symptoms (from "low self-esteem" through suicidality), who
is susceptible, what the brain-wiring problems are, how antidepressants
work and what their side-effects can be.
While acknowledging the pop culture's fairly promiscuous use of the
term "addiction," Solomon gives a substance-by-substance account of the
various ways depressives try to self-medicate. His discussion reflects
the sanest perspective on the link between depression and addiction: an
understanding that they are closely linked and mutually reinforcing
problems that, nonetheless, must be addressed separately. Treating one
disorder while expecting this to cure the other sounds appealing, but
the chemistry of the psyche is not quite so cost-effective.
Solomon also reports on the work of evolutionary psychologists who have
argued that melancholia could have some long-term biological advantage:
"Mild depression, in their view, causes intense introspection and
self-examination, on the basis of which it is possible to make
sophisticated decisions about how to effect changes in one's life so
that it better suits one's character. ...A situation in which a person
cannot disengage from a truly hopeless goal may be resolved through
depression, which forces disengagement. ...Low mood serves to delimit
persistence." It sure does. While the pages devoted to this argument
are among the most intriguing in the book, the theory that melancholia
offers its own rewards (in the form of profound cognitive enrichment)
almost makes the whole experience sound appealing. Then again, this is
an idea that can only be entertained when you have your wits about
you-when you aren't trapped by the gridlock certainty that every single
thing you have ever done (or can plausibly imagine ever trying) counts
only as hopeless failure.
Much harder to take seriously is the speculation that depression could
be nature's roundabout way of strengthening social bonds. It is nearly
impossible to conduct a conversation when you have been decapitated.
For one thing, you aren't a good listener; the scope for your attention
is not far-ranging.
Solomon's commitment to making a comprehensive survey of the recent
thinking obliges him to report on this theory. But as a sufferer, he
knows better. "The fact is, most people are appalled by depression," as
he rightly notes. "Though some respond to a display of depression with
increased sympathy and altruism, more respond to such a display with
revulsion and disgust." The comprehensiveness of "The Noonday Demon" is
somewhat undercut by a tendency to repetition and meandering. Its large
masses of information are held together, as by rubber bands, with
anecdotal and confessional passages. For anyone with an unwelcome
familiarity with its topic, Solomon's "atlas of depression" (as the
subtitle has it) is something best taken off the shelf to consult,
though not to read straight through. There are not many surprises here.
But that's not a big problem. Sometimes you just aren't in the mood for
surprises.
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